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You know...we all have our heroes when we're children. Weather it be fictional or real, but there is always someone or something that shapes your path in life. I've had many 'heroes' in my life, going from my family, to friends and teachers and yes, one or two 'celebrities'.
One is Mark Speight. (
[link] [link] )
Who is Mark Speight? He was a man who presented on a children's art show 'Smart' on the BBC (or CBBC in this case). He's been on the show for as long as I can remember and only last year, I literary bumped into him whilst at the Tate modern and he looked and signed my sketch book. (
[link] ).

I didn't bother him too much since he looked as if he was with friends, but I told him that he was a big inspiration and it was awesome to still see him on the art scene. He was quite happy to accept my sketch book and his friends were not bothered by my appearance after a stream of school kids.
Well, he's been in the news a lot recently. His fiancée who was also a children's presenter on another of Mark's shows was found dead in their home after a mishap with drugs. Now the devastated Mark is missing, and although I try not to pry to much in the lives of others, when it comes to this, I'm genuinely worried.
I guess there is little I can do, asides for keep an eye out, but like anybody, Mark is one man among millions. he could be anywhere by now. But I guess this is my bad attempt at getting my little voice out.
I'm 20 years old and in my first year of Animation studies in the university of Portsmouth. One of the main reasons I picked up a pencil and continued with art is because of this man.
Now I've seen nasty comments floating around about how the may have hurt Natasha his fiancée, or how he was on cocaine and even gems like this:
"Is it surprising that children become out of control teenagers when their role models are seriously flawed?"
...The thing is, Mark wasn't flawed. In fact, he was the best presenter out there. Children aren't going to take drugs or hurt their lovers because they saw it on the news, come on, give kids more credit then that! Mark did! And besides, he's been proven innocent and hasn't been charge, so what are you trying to say?
Besides, everyone shows a different face to the world then the one they really have. And the face I saw was one that pushed me to doing art and at the end of the day I ask any child here in the UK about art, and they pretty much all say that mark from Smart helped them express themselves. At the end of the day, I do not care what they have done. It's been proved he didn't hurt the one he loved and he's not on drug charges. Weather or not drugs are in the equation or the fact I disagree with the use of cocaine is neither here or there. There is a man out there who is crushed and probably lost as to who his is right now and that man was an icon to thousands of children.
My ending word is this:
To all you scorning parents and misguided teenagers:Mark is not a bad man. In fact, he is a very good man. I'm am sitting here doing art because of this man. My only hope is that he is safe, so that he can continue to do good. #
I highly doubt that Mark or his friends and fmaily will ever see this, but here is my message to mark:
Don't give up on yourself. Grief will hurt and you are probably feeling like it is truly the end. That is something I can only imagine and then it is not enough. I'm sure you feel not just grief but guilt, hopelessness and possibly anger and all the other emotions that come through a terrible time such as this.
But for the children you inspired, entertained and taught growing up; it is certainly not the end. Even if you cannot return to what you loved, you can live on in something else and do good for the life ahead of you and for Natasha.
when in doubt, use the art you loved so much to express yourself when the time is right. You may find a new life in that (and it doesn't necessarily mean leaving the one you have now behind).
Oh, and listen to 'the hours- Ali in the Jungle'. A pretty powerful song in itself and the reason behind why the song exists is also very inspiring and I guess pretty relevant to this situation:
[link][link]Your fan- Emeline.
and that is all.
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In otehr news...
yeah I know, kinda pathetic, but my oldest Neopets account under 'em0111' has been hacked. I think I accidentally logged in via a fake log in. Now the person is in my account. I even sent a neomail and they''re pretending to be me.
Further more, they're abandoning my pets. ;.;
[link] my bunny is already in the pound. if anyone is on neopets, if you could keep an eye out for my pets when the pound re-opens, I'll be very great-full. <3
oh well, if you have accounts, hopefully if I get it back, I would appreciate a leg up again. I was saving up for lotsa paint brushes. My usernames are at the bottom of this journal <3
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in other news, I have a feature thingie as I was tagged by

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did it.
I shall feature the first ten people who comment in this journal and pick 3 of their best pieces.
Also, if you asked to be featured, make sure to create a journal featuring ten people as well.
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Interesting write with a touch of humour.

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anyway- who wants request? I've got this chain request thing you see, but it's a chibi one. I hate chibi. So it's a WORM request instead!

5 free WORM requests!
"Btw, whoever orders a chibi (worm in my case because I hate anime

), also must post this in his/her journal and make chibis (or whatever) for 5 more people." no post, no request.
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Wanna find me and chat to me? Well, please do. Below is a list of places you can find me. Please let me know whom you are if you add me under a name or username I will not recognise. <3
Msn and e-mailemeline [DOT] porter [AT] gmail.com
Other DA accounts:
Secondlife:AcidShadow Gears
Skype:Shadow_acid
Livejournal:[link]Facebook:Emeline p
Gaiaonline:Acid_shadow
Temple of Mewtwo : (
[link] )
Shadow
Nopets (yes. I have a lot of neopet accounts. Go figure; I LOVE creature creation stuff! I have accounts at other places, but I wont bother listing them ehre unless people are interested)em0111 (my main one...and hacked.

)
acid_shadow
Worm_god
shadow_deamon
mewns_shadow
shadowed_outcast
emilin_da_grenalin ( I dunno what happened to this one. It simply vanished, and with no e-mail warning either!)
conseptart - (encourage me to use this one guys!)
Acid_shadow
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Art trades:
Closed.

Gifts:
stormeh (50%)
Cheshiresphinx
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